Apology From The Heart

Hello all my beautiful friends.  I wanted to share with you today some videos I have recently created in order to offer up an apology for a beautiful soul that I hurt,made confused,angry,and distrustful of me as a person.  I wanted things to be the way my perceptions thought things should be and I was wrong.  Because in the process of wanting a situation a certain I lost a very important genuine authentic being in my world.

I still care about this person and really wish the best for the caring and loving soul and hope that one day this person can forgive me.  I go into much more detail in my videos. So I hope you enjoy it and learn a lesson or two as I have.  I know that this is a very important lesson this special one has taught me and I would be foolish not to learn anything from our experience.

I know that when I stop learning from what life presents before me I will be stuck in fear and regret.
Life is,to me,about taking chances,letting others make their own decisions on their life's path,and giving people respect and having empathy for what others are going through. I thought that I was doing the right thing but I pushed my wishes and desires of what I could see the situation to be and that was totally and completely wrong.

Who am I to say what someone should or could do within their own individual life path?  I am truly grateful to have met this beautiful soul and I am eternally grateful for meeting this person.  Such bright illuminated soul should be allowed respect and room to be their authentic self.

I realized that I was being controlling.  I wanting things my way or no way at all.  That is not the way to go for me in order to be a better person I am going to learn from this lesson and meditate for forgiveness.

This person was nothing but supportive of my life's choices and appreciated me to the fullest. I became hurt,confused,frustrated,angry,and sad.  A change occured and I could not handle it at the time.  I began to process things in a distorted manner.  I usually take time out to access the situation before just spouting off hurtful words.  And then I sent mixed messages that caused a whole new perception to that awesome person I hurt so deeply of who I am as a person.

I thought about how hurt this person must feel.  And I have been thinking about it day by day.  It makes me cry and feel disgusted with how I treated this person. This bright soul was always nothing but respectful of my life and supportive of whatever decisions I made within my life.

I have many more lessons to learn I am sure.  The important thing for me to do is to really truly listen,hear and feel what is going on and not to get trapped into thinking that I can change and manipulate someone else's life path to suit my needs.

To that special person, if you are listening, please,please forgive me. If you ever want to contact me again and be friends I am open.  I will be honest,open,and always supportive in whatever decisions you make in your life and listen to you with an open heart. I wish you and your family peace,harmony,and abundance!  Brightest Blessings always and forever, Trina :)

Hello Everyone,
I hope you all are enjoying the end of your Summer season.  I have been quite busy making lots of art. In particular I have been having lots of fun making dreadlock beads.  And I also created a new dreadlock video.  I get a lot of the same questions over and over.  Most of them involve wanting your dreads to look like mine.  That is an impossiblities my friends.  Love your dreads for the uniqueness of them all just like you are a unique individual so too are your locks if you are freeforming.

You have to let go of conventional standards of what dreadlocks are suppose to look like when you decide to let Mother Nature take her course. Oh and I also make necklaces and bracelets using polymer clay.  They are all on my etsy store at www.darkmoondoll.etsy.com

Freeform Dreadlocks 15yr. Anniversary

Today I celebrate  my 15yr. journey living with freeform dreads upon my head. I still feel as connected them as last year.  It is a life long journey that know will never end. It is my connection to mother nature and all that is natural and free.
I still get the rude comments and crazy stares but it doesn't affect me the way it did in the beginning of my journey.  I know that these people that judge have a lot of  hatred towards themselves and instead of work on the self they find distractions .

This natural path started with my hair and has,over the years,carried over into my health as well. I eat 95% raw fruit in my diet and I have noticed remarkable changes in the health of my body,hair skin,and nails and peace of mind. The rest of my diet consists of raw greens,small amounts of cooked rice and potatoes. 

I am not suggesting that anyone try this lifestyle but it has helped me with a lot of digested problems ie. GERD(gastroesophogeal reflux disease,lack of energy,and more focus.

Thank for those who stop by and I hope you love yourself for who are no matter what! :)

littlefishink.com hats

My really awesomely talented friend m.cody shelton of www.littlefishink.com made a really cool hat for this fall season that I wanted to share with you all. Go check out her clever crochet,knit and sewing skills.

Freeforming Turned Me Into A Creative Being

I decided to stop doing any kind of hair style with my dreads because my scalp doesn't like to be pulled this way and that. And my dreads like to do their own thing. They don't like me putting my hands in them every 5 seconds to straighten them out. They know what they should look like.

They prefer to move ,twist and turn in their own direction.

So since I don't do any fancy hair do's anymore I have had plenty more time for crafting. I guess some may say putting handmade dread beads on your dreads to be fancy but I call them power beads.

They are fun and you get to be even more of a living work of art. I don't wear the beads all of the time but every now and then I like to put a few in depending on my mood.

I also make cloth art doll using recycled fabrics and materials that are also recycled. Since my journey of freeform dreading began I have felt extremely creative . It's like my anntenae are picking up creative sparks from here and there.

Keeping my hands out of my dreads lets them flourish and be how they want to be and helps me to be my authentic self.

I have learned through the years that the less I do to my dreads the better the do. They get thicker,they get longer,and they are very easy to care for. When you love them no matter how long or short they are they feel it and become healthier and healthier with each passing day.

FreeFormed Dreads Are Free

If you are thinking of going the natural route when it comes to dreadlocks there is no easier way than freeforming.

In my opinion it is the greatest way to give you hair and scalp a permanent rest from all of the manipulation it has been through in the past.

I suggest keeping things simple.

I decided to go back to only using my rosemary,sage,peppermint rinse and forego the any soaps or shampoos or baking soda rinses. Or vinegar rinses.

My dreads just feel better and stronger. If I can harvest some from the river I add horsetail as well.

I have also learned that I don't need oils. I tried olive oil a long time ago and it left a stinky smell on my scalp and hair. I tried the jojoba oil and it left a stinky smell in my dreads. When I don't use oils I have no stinky smell and my dreads feel great without them.

I make sure to let them air dry completely during the summer. So I spend lot of time in the sun. During the long winter months I like to use my big fan to blow them dry.

This works for me but I am not saying it will work for you.

Freeformed dreads are sometimes seperate but I don't seperate mine. I let them congo and marry each other all over my head.

The hairstyle for me was free. I didn't go to a salon to work on it because nature only needs simple things. Air, water,sun,and healthy nutrition.

Freeformer Dreadlocked African American Women

I just wanted to say how happy I am to see more African American women embrassing their natural selves through freeform dreadlocks. I have been wearing mine for 14yrs now and never thought in the beginning of my journey to document it. In a previous post I showed photos of myself before the journey but no month by month or week by week kinda update.

It seems to have also brought awareness to many African American women to take part in a healthier way of living in general I have noticed. I smile everytime I see another freeformer blog because where I live I never see any freeforming women just manicured locs. I am not coming down on the manicured locs it's just not my cup of tea.

I am enjoying the freedom of getting up and not doing anything with my hair accept for washing and go.

I am currently still doing a rosemary/mint/sage rinse on my dreads which I have been doing way back in 2000. I thought of doing it from reading one of my herb books that talk about which herbs are good of the hair. I grow my own herbs to use in my rinse and I collected some fresh horsetail from the river a few days ago to add to my rinse. Horsetail is suppose to be good for strengthen hair and helping with hair growth as well.

I 'll share more on this once my finger heals. I had an incident with my ring finger where it got so swollen I had to have a jeweler cut it off. Anyway happy freeforming all and if anyone has any question for me feel free to ask.

Brightest Blessings

Trina

P.S. The photos is of me at the ocean. About a week ago me and my family went camping at our favorite campsite in Fort Bragg. The ocean air is great for locks!